A Long-Alone Sunday

"Sabi sa census may 11 milyon na tao sa Metro Manila. Paano mo malalaman na nahanap mo na yung taong para sa'yo? Maaring nakita mo na siya, pero yumuko ka para magsintas. Maaring nakatabi mo na siya, pero lumingon ka para tingnan ang traffic lights. Maaring nakasalubong mo na siya pero humarang yung pedicab.

May mga maswerteng tao na nahanap na yung taong para sa kanila. May mga taong patuloy na naghahanap at may iba na sumuko na. Pero yung pinakamasaklap, eh yung na sayo na pinakawalan mo pa

alam kong masarap mainlab,, pero sabi nga nila, ang relationships ay para lang sa mga matatapang,,, pano kung maduwag ka,,, hindi ka nga masasaktan,,, pero mas mabigat naman sa pakiramdam ang pag-iisa.."


We were supposed to meet today, Sunday. Go to mass, watch a movie and spend some missed "quality time".


Im off at work at 6am, and so he is. I hurried myself to sleep so I can get up early and not feel sleazy later in the afternoon.


I so wanted to spend this day with him. :)


Then for some reason, half-expectedly, it was cancelled. :(


Its not the first time this happened nor Im surprised this actually happened. And I just shrugged my shoulders, what the heck!


Feeling low and down, I went off to Quiapo church..alone. Which I only do when Im single, hello!!, I'm not!!!


As we were nearing the "Our father", i glanced at the back and there I saw someone crying.


To my surprise, he caught my attention. I glanced the 2nd, 3rd, 4th, until I finally lost count.


The guy was a big, chub, moreno-type. Not that he's not my type, Im inside a church, but what really caught my attention was his sobbing. :(


He was literally in tears as he continuously wept throughout the mass. Then the realization touched me.


This man could have far more bigger problem than I have. And I just simply uttered "Lord, kung anuman dinadasal nya, I know YOU will give what he needs." And I prayed for my peace.


I have to thank God for all his blessings to me: my family, my work, my friends...whether this relationship I have will last, thank you still for the experience...as it made me things that I only do when I am single... to be talking to You, heart to heart, soul to soul...