Tuesday, July 5, 2011


OGGLE - a humorous or simply mispronounced version of the verb to ‘ogle’, usually in the sense of ‘eye lasciviously’. A middle-class colloquialism. - Slang Dictionary

OGGLE - To stare at the breasts or ass of a woman with out their knowledge. - Urban Dictionary.

Baket ko nga ba binigay ang meaning neto? Here's the story,
Sometime ago, I dated a guy which I really liked. He's professional, within proximity of my area, family-oriented, God-fearing and discreet. What else can I ask for. :)

And so we were exclusively dating and togetherness could be inevitable. :)

After hours of cuddling and hugging in his nest, he dropped the bomb, and that he LOVED me...

I was caught off guard and I didnt replied since its too early I should say. I wasn't there yet..

So to lighten up a bit, I asked that we watched a movie after we go to church.

The previous mass is about to end and as we took a seat in the middle section, a hunky guy went to sit in front of us and my date became so conscious that it was obvious he was OGGLING him... :(

He even touched me and pointed his mouth towards the guy in front to acknowledge his presence. And his eyes were really delighted. Damn.

What was he thinking?? All throughout the mass I didn't talk to him. And when he noticed it afterwards, I told him it was a big turnoff. :(

Oggling is different from appreciating... especially when you're with someone you want to impress or take as your partner... :)

Tuesday, June 21, 2011


Its been 2 months since I last posted an entry in my blog.

Its been 2 months when I learned he will leave me for a job abroad.

Its been 11 days since he left.

I was never good with goodbyes, especially when I'm the one being left behind.

But life has to move on and everyone deserves to be happy...

including myself...

For I deserve to be happy...

not in the arms of someone who keeps me waiting...

but in the arms of someone who will take me NOW...
love me FOREVER...
and leave me NEVER...

Funny how this song has his name on the lyrics. :(

Thursday, April 28, 2011

"10 THINGS Happy Couples do"

"10 THINGS Happy Couples do" 
By Mark Goulston, M.D.

Discover the 10 things that happy couples do:

1. Go to bed at the same time.
the beginning of your relationship, when you couldn’t wait to go to bed
with each other to make love? Happy couples resist the temptation to go
to bed at different times. They go to bed at the same time, even if one
partner wakes up later to do things while their partner sleeps.

2. Cultivate common interests.
the passion settles down, it’s common to realize that you have few
interests in common. But don’t minimize the importance of activities
you can do together that you both enjoy. If common interests are not
present, happy couples develop them. At the same time, be sure to
cultivate interests of your own; this will make you more interesting to
your mate and prevent you from appearing too dependent.

3. Walk hand in hand or side by side. 
than one partner lagging or dragging behind the other, happy couples
walk comfortably hand in hand or side by side. They know it’s more
important to be with their partner than to see the sights along the way.

4. Make trust and forgiveness your default mode.
and when they have a disagreement or argument, and if they can’t
resolve it, happy couples default to trusting and forgiving rather than
distrusting and begrudging.

5. Focus more on what your partner does right than what he or she does wrong.
you look for things your partner does wrong, you can always find
something. If you look for what he or she does right, you can always
find something, too. It all depends on what you want to look for. Happy
couples accentuate the positive.

6. Hug each other as soon as you see each other after work. 
skin has a memory of "good touch" (loved), "bad touch" (abused) and "no
touch" (neglected). Couples who say hello with a hug keep their skin
bathed in

the "good touch," which can inoculate your spirit against anonymity in the world.

7. Say "I love you" and "Have a good day" every morning. 
is a great way to buy some patience and tolerance as each partner sets
out each day to battle traffic jams, long lines and other annoyances.

8. Say "Good night" every night, regardless of how you feel.
This tells your partner that, regardless of how upset you are with him or her, you
still want to be in the relationship. It says that what you and your partner have is bigger than any single upsetting incident.

9. Do a "weather" check during the day.
your partner at home or at work to see how his or her day is going.
This is a great way to adjust expectations so that you’re more in sync
when you connect after work. For instance, if your partner is having an
awful day, it might be unreasonable to expect him or her to be
enthusiastic about something good that happened to you.

10. Be proud to be seen with your partner. 
couples are pleased to be seen together and are often in some kind of
affectionate contact — hand on hand or hand on shoulder or knee or
back of neck. They are not showing off but rather just saying that they
belong with each other.

if these actions don’t come naturally, happy couples stick with them
until they do become a part of their relationship. They know that it
takes 30 days for a change in behavior to become a habit, and a minimum
of six months for a habit to become a way of life and love.

Dr. Goulston is the co-founder of CouplesCompany.com and the author of The
6 Secrets of a Lasting Relationship (Putnam, 2001).

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Maundy Thursday Reflection

"I never wished anyone bad luck no matter how much they caused me pain. "

Around 1AM, another EX, let's call him GA - short for palangga, started texting me. Telling me how awful his life has been in the past 4 years.

Flashback  4 years ago: he dropped me like a hot potato after almost 6 months of relationship. I was so serious then that we even started living together. I would sleep over their apartment at least 2-3 times a week. And I was not wrong to use "THEIR", he shared it with his sister. Its a first for him to admit he's gay and a first that he allowed a partner slept over their apartment. Cheezy, I know.

The reason then was unclear as he stopped texting me or answering my calls. I even went as far as calling her sister and friend if he's okay as he's not picking up his phone or texting me. I felt the world came tumbling down at that time. I thought I would die.

Forward to 2011: I'm happy now. At least for now. I dont know what will happen next or what life has in store for me, but I can honestly say I am happy now with my current partner of 5 months. :D

GA: I have a song for you - The Past.. hehehe.. ( I think this one was revived by Jed Madela, "I was wrong when I hurt you..")
ME: (Deadma at first, but replied anyway) Musta? San ka sa holy week?
GA: Punta sa floridablanca. Sa haus ng family ng staff ko dati. May ipapakilala daw hehe.
ME: Awts. (An expression I acquired, ewan ko what's the meaning but for me parang aw, in a sweet tone)
GA: Anu yung awts? Wala yun no.
ME: (No Reaction)

After 2 hours.
GA: Miss you to (short for "toto", a name for small boy, used to be my nick). Wala lang, laseng lang..
ME: Baket ka naglalasing eh holy week?

Then he called. I answered. Then he relates how sorry he was with what he did to me and how he wanted my forgiveness. I've  already forgiven him. I have moved on. Things has changed and I decided to just be happy and continue my life without him.

He said he'd gone to Afghanistan and Singapore for work and all this time he has not found a good partner. And how he's been feeling "miserable" not having someone beside him for all his trials.

I dropped the bomb - I told him he was like that coz he rely his happiness on just one person and he gets frustrated when he cant find that person.

He retaliated - Yes, I am bitter coz you are happy! You have a partner, you are happy and you have a good job! (bitter much??!!)

I fought back - Yes, I am happy coz its my choice. You are miserable coz you chose to be miserable. You were never contented in the first place.

Then we started talking about what really happened 4 years ago, the time he left me. He narrates how he wanted to go back to his ex-seminarian. But it didnt work that's why he hooked us up. Yes, he gave my number so we can date. Which we did, but for me, my only reason is to get the closure I really wanted.

I spied. I investigated. And I got what I wanted - a closure. 

I can sense how low he must be feeling right now, and how lucky I am today. I can only feel for him. There was never an anger or cursing at him with what I knew now about what happened to us. But I feel sorry for him. I know I couldn't do anything to lighten up his burden. But this made me reflect my life. How I realized how blessed I am with what I have. Not near any perfection, but enough to give me ample happiness.

It didn't end that bad. :D I know we are friends now. I maybe in a better place as compared to him, but ultimately its MY CHOICE. I would have ended like him 4 years ago, but I  fought hard not to. Life is indeed a choice. 

Until now, I am still fighting my own battles. I win some, I probably lost more. But I'm happy, coz its my choice.

For now I don't believe in Forever anymore, only in prolonged happiness - while it lasts.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

GMA Newsbreak....pasok!!!

GMA News... walang kinikilingan, walang pinoproprotektahan 

at walang maintindihan!! 

Saturday, April 16, 2011

My source of joy - Hunter and Ming

Let me share with you two of my sources of joy: Hunter(male) and Ming(female)

These two never fails in giving me such joy and happiness when I am with them. Hunter is a 3-month old Japanese Spitz which was given to me by my beloved. :D Baby namen kya extra special. Hehe. Ming(golden brown), on the other hand came from my brother's now-wife, (GF pa lang sila nung binigay sa amin si Ming).

They are adorable pets and somehow makes me realize how simple life is for them. (mainggit ba sa aso! LOL) 

See how cute these dogs are!!!

Friday, April 15, 2011

The Haunting!

This is scary! As in! Brace yourself!


Eh kase naman, ever since I started this relationship almost 5 months ago, I am being haunted by my partner's past. Hehe.

Haunting #1: Out of 7107 islands, 2 sa ex ko ay nakilala nya sa chat. Although di naman personally sila nag meet. But the details are so graphic. Lol! (I think, this one is medyo not impossible!)

Haunting #2: Meron syang isang ex na long-time friend ko sa YM and I never thought na magiging close kami nitong ex nya inspite of their odd chance meeting (its another story) and not-so-good-dramatic-1-month-old-relationship.

Haunting #3: When I was about to buy my DSLR in Megamall, again, out of 7107 islands (low tide man o high tide!), andun din yung ex nya na sobra nyang minahal, at nasa iisang floor at building kami ng Megamall! Coincidence or pang-asar lang!!?? Happy Moment ko pa naman yun!!

Haunting #4: He mentioned someone na nagpi-flirt daw sa kanya. I take note of the name and how he looks like. Voila! The next day at my work, I saw him in the flesh! SPOOKY! (Pati itsura nya, haha... my bad!)

And I made some realizations:

#1: Siguro its a sign na wag ako sobrang seloso or else hahabulin ako ng multo ng past nya.
#2: Sobrang mahal ko tong tao na ito kaya yung mga naiisip ko, nagkakatotoo! (hindi ko naman ni-wish na makita ko silang lahat at makilala, I mean all his ex's. Okay, slight lang!:D)
#3: Pakalat-kalat lang talaga sila o AKO MISMO pakalat-kalat!

Sana last na to. Baka aatakihin na ako sa puso sa susunod na may "nagparamdam"! Or else baka TOPAKIN ako!