tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-79925692846854355532024-02-18T18:25:31.654-08:00Topak!!TOPAK!!!http://www.blogger.com/profile/13479880241989270607noreply@blogger.comBlogger20125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7992569284685435553.post-22568949231184596892011-07-05T06:48:00.000-07:002011-07-05T06:48:43.155-07:00OGGLE - OGGLING<div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span class="definition">OGGLE - a humorous or simply mispronounced version of the verb to ‘ogle’, usually in the sense of ‘eye lasciviously’. A middle-class colloquialism. - Slang Dictionary</span></span></div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span class="definition"><br />
</span></span></div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span class="definition">OGGLE - </span>To stare at the breasts or ass of a woman with out their knowledge. - Urban Dictionary.</span></div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><br />
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</span></div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Baket ko nga ba binigay ang meaning neto? Here's the story,</span></div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"> </span></div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Sometime ago, I dated a guy which I really liked. He's professional, within proximity of my area, family-oriented, God-fearing and discreet. What else can I ask for. :)</span></div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><br />
</div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">And so we were exclusively dating and togetherness could be inevitable. :)</span></div><span style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; font-size: small;"><br />
</span><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">After hours of cuddling and hugging in his nest, he dropped the bomb, and that he LOVED me...</span></div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">I was caught off guard and I didnt replied since its too early I should say. I wasn't there yet..</span></div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">So to lighten up a bit, I asked that we watched a movie after we go to church.</span></div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">The previous mass is about to end and as we took a seat in the middle section, a hunky guy went to sit in front of us and my date became so conscious that it was obvious he was OGGLING him... :(</span></div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">He even touched me and pointed his mouth towards the guy in front to acknowledge his presence. And his eyes were really delighted. Damn.</span></div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"></div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"></div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">What was he thinking?? All throughout the mass I didn't talk to him. And when he noticed it afterwards, I told him it was a big turnoff. :(</span></div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><br />
</div><div style="color: cyan; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Oggling is different from appreciating... especially when you're with someone you want to impress or take as your partner... :)</span></div>TOPAK!!!http://www.blogger.com/profile/13479880241989270607noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7992569284685435553.post-5757126914568782482011-06-21T21:30:00.000-07:002011-06-21T21:37:04.184-07:00Hibernation<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: large;">Its been 2 months since I last posted an entry in my blog.</span><br />
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</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: large;">Its been 2 months when I learned he will leave me for a job abroad.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: large;"><br />
</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: large;">Its been 11 days since he left.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: large;"><br />
</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: large;">I was never good with goodbyes, especially when I'm the one being left behind.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: large;"><br />
</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: large;">But life has to move on and everyone deserves to be happy...</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: large;"><br />
</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: large;">including myself...</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: large;"><br />
</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: large;">For I deserve to be happy...</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: large;"><br />
</span></div><div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: large;">not in the arms of someone who keeps me waiting...</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: large;"><br />
</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: large;">but in the arms of someone who will take me NOW...</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: large;">love me FOREVER...</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: large;">and leave me NEVER...</span></div></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: large;"><br />
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</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: x-small;">Funny how this song has his name on the lyrics. :( </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: large;"><br />
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</div>TOPAK!!!http://www.blogger.com/profile/13479880241989270607noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7992569284685435553.post-54467301037602946262011-04-28T15:41:00.001-07:002011-04-28T15:43:13.252-07:00"10 THINGS Happy Couples do"<div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="color: #cc33cc;">"10 THINGS Happy Couples do" </span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #cc33cc;">By Mark Goulston, M.D.</span></span></span></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #ff6600;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><br />
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<span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #ff6600;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">Discover the 10 things that happy couples do:</span></span></span></span></div><div style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><div style="color: #333333;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #663333;"><span style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;"><br />
</span></span></span></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: orange; font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;">1. Go to bed at the same time.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: orange;">Remember<br />
the beginning of your relationship, when you couldn’t wait to go to bed<br />
with each other to make love? Happy couples resist the temptation to go<br />
to bed at different times. They go to bed at the same time, even if one<br />
partner wakes up later to do things while their partner sleeps.</span></span></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;"><br />
</span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;">2. Cultivate common interests.</span></span></span></span></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #33cc00;">After<br />
the passion settles down, it’s common to realize that you have few<br />
interests in common. But don’t minimize the importance of activities<br />
you can do together that you both enjoy. If common interests are not<br />
present, happy couples develop them. At the same time, be sure to<br />
cultivate interests of your own; this will make you more interesting to<br />
your mate and prevent you from appearing too dependent.</span></span></span></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #00cccc;"><span style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;"><br />
</span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #00cccc;"><span style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;">3. Walk hand in hand or side by side.</span></span><span style="color: #00cccc;"><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span></span></span></span></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #00cccc;">Rather<br />
than one partner lagging or dragging behind the other, happy couples<br />
walk comfortably hand in hand or side by side. They know it’s more<br />
important to be with their partner than to see the sights along the way.</span></span></span></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #6600cc;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><br />
</span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #6600cc;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-style: italic;">4. Make trust and forgiveness your default mode.</span></span></span></span></span></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #6600cc;">If<br />
and when they have a disagreement or argument, and if they can’t<br />
resolve it, happy couples default to trusting and forgiving rather than<br />
distrusting and begrudging.</span></span></span></div><div style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><div style="color: #333333;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #666600;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><br />
</span></span></span></span></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="color: yellow; font-style: italic;">5. Focus more on what your partner does right than what he or she does wrong.</span></span></span></div><div style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: yellow;">If<br />
you look for things your partner does wrong, you can always find<br />
something. If you look for what he or she does right, you can always<br />
find something, too. It all depends on what you want to look for. Happy<br />
couples accentuate the positive.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><div style="color: #333333;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #666666;"><span style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;"><br />
</span></span></span></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime; font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;">6. Hug each other as soon as you see each other after work.</span><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span></span></div><div style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime; font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;">Our<br />
skin has a memory of "good touch" (loved), "bad touch" (abused) and "no<br />
touch" (neglected). Couples who say hello with a hug keep their skin<br />
bathed in</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: lime;">the "good touch," which can inoculate your spirit against anonymity in the world.</span></span></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #000099;"><span style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;"><br />
</span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #000099;"><span style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;">7. Say "I love you" and "Have a good day" every morning.</span></span><span style="color: #000099;"><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span></span></span></span></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #000099;">This<br />
is a great way to buy some patience and tolerance as each partner sets<br />
out each day to battle traffic jams, long lines and other annoyances.</span></span></span></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #cc33cc;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><br />
</span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #cc33cc;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-style: italic;">8. Say "Good night" every night, regardless of how you feel.</span></span></span></span></span></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #cc33cc;">This tells your partner that, regardless of how upset you are with him or her, you</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #cc33cc;">still want to be in the relationship. It says that what you and your partner have is bigger than any single upsetting incident.</span></span></span></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #ffcc00;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><br />
</span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #ffcc00;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-style: italic;">9. Do a "weather" check during the day.</span></span></span></span></span></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #ffcc00;">Call<br />
your partner at home or at work to see how his or her day is going.<br />
This is a great way to adjust expectations so that you’re more in sync<br />
when you connect after work. For instance, if your partner is having an<br />
awful day, it might be unreasonable to expect him or her to be<br />
enthusiastic about something good that happened to you.</span></span></span></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #9999ff;"><span style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;"><br />
</span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #9999ff;"><span style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;">10. Be proud to be seen with your partner.</span></span><span style="color: #9999ff;"><span style="font-style: italic;"> </span></span></span></span></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #9999ff;">Happy<br />
couples are pleased to be seen together and are often in some kind of<br />
affectionate contact — hand on hand or hand on shoulder or knee or<br />
back of neck. They are not showing off but rather just saying that they<br />
belong with each other.</span></span></span></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: red;"><br />
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<span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: red;">Even<br />
if these actions don’t come naturally, happy couples stick with them<br />
until they do become a part of their relationship. They know that it<br />
takes 30 days for a change in behavior to become a habit, and a minimum<br />
of six months for a habit to become a way of life and love.</span></span></span></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 1.05em; line-height: 16px;"><span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #cc66cc;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><br />
</span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #cc66cc;"><span style="font-style: italic;">Dr. Goulston is the co-founder of CouplesCompany.com and the author of The</span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #33cc00;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 12px;"><span style="color: #cc66cc;"><span style="font-style: italic;">6 Secrets of a Lasting Relationship (Putnam, 2001).</span></span></span></span></div>TOPAK!!!http://www.blogger.com/profile/13479880241989270607noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7992569284685435553.post-11221644689917542762011-04-20T12:31:00.000-07:002011-04-20T12:40:40.861-07:00Maundy Thursday Reflection<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiEvsHl2Nbnu2LpZyspK8UNaU9E7CY1NbLFVYLtsJ-_tLMXBqpAGyGAa-eEmJnH0VcqrKTgK-CqiwiQEygyT2dsTOMjUjt7lECnIyvGWzns6EOqMYMjxjrFSalmW_gn6Z_AYdPYN5wJno6M/s1600/reflection-1.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="287" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiEvsHl2Nbnu2LpZyspK8UNaU9E7CY1NbLFVYLtsJ-_tLMXBqpAGyGAa-eEmJnH0VcqrKTgK-CqiwiQEygyT2dsTOMjUjt7lECnIyvGWzns6EOqMYMjxjrFSalmW_gn6Z_AYdPYN5wJno6M/s400/reflection-1.gif" width="400" /></a></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-size: large;"><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">"I never wished anyone bad luck no matter how much they caused me pain. "</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Around 1AM, another EX, let's call him GA - short for palangga, started texting me. Telling me how awful his life has been in the past 4 years.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">The reason then was unclear as he stopped texting me or answering my calls. I even went as far as calling her sister and friend if he's okay as he's not picking up his phone or texting me. I felt the world came tumbling down at that time. I thought I would die.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">GA: I have a song for you - The Past.. hehehe.. ( I think this one was revived by Jed Madela, "I was wrong when I hurt you..")</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">ME: Awts. (An expression I acquired, ewan ko what's the meaning but for me parang aw, in a sweet tone)</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Then he called. I answered. Then he relates how sorry he was with what he did to me and how he wanted my forgiveness. I've already forgiven him. I have moved on. Things has changed and I decided to just be happy and continue my life without him.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">He retaliated - Yes, I am bitter coz you are happy! You have a partner, you are happy and you have a good job! (bitter much??!!)</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">I fought back - Yes, I am happy coz its my choice. You are miserable coz you chose to be miserable. You were never contented in the first place.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Then we started talking about what really happened 4 years ago, the time he left me. He narrates how he wanted to go back to his ex-seminarian. But it didnt work that's why he hooked us up. Yes, he gave my number so we can date. Which we did, but for me, my only reason is to get the closure I really wanted.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">I can sense how low he must be feeling right now, and how lucky I am today. I can only feel for him. There was never an anger or cursing at him with what I knew now about what happened to us. But I feel sorry for him. I know I couldn't do anything to lighten up his burden. But this made me reflect my life. How I realized how blessed I am with what I have. Not near any perfection, but enough to give me ample happiness.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large;">Eh kase naman, ever since I started this relationship almost 5 months ago, I am being haunted by my partner's past. Hehe.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: magenta; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif; font-size: large;">Haunting #1: Out of 7107 islands, 2 sa ex ko ay nakilala nya sa chat. Although di naman personally sila nag meet. But the details are so graphic. Lol! (I think, this one is medyo not impossible!)</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: magenta; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif; font-size: large;">Haunting #2: Meron syang isang ex na long-time friend ko sa YM and I never thought na magiging close kami nitong ex nya inspite of their odd chance meeting (its another story) and not-so-good-dramatic-1-month-old-relationship.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: magenta; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif; font-size: large;">Haunting #3: When I was about to buy my DSLR in Megamall, again, out of 7107 islands (low tide man o high tide!), andun din yung ex nya na sobra nyang minahal, at nasa iisang floor at building kami ng Megamall! Coincidence or pang-asar lang!!?? Happy Moment ko pa naman yun!!</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: magenta; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif; font-size: large;">Haunting #4: He mentioned someone na nagpi-flirt daw sa kanya. I take note of the name and how he looks like. Voila! The next day at my work, I saw him in the flesh! SPOOKY! (Pati itsura nya, haha... my bad!)</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large;">And I made some realizations:</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large;">#1: Siguro its a sign na wag ako sobrang seloso or else hahabulin ako ng multo ng past nya.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large;">#2: Sobrang mahal ko tong tao na ito kaya yung mga naiisip ko, nagkakatotoo! (hindi ko naman ni-wish na makita ko silang lahat at makilala, I mean all his ex's. Okay, slight lang!:D)</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large;">#3: Pakalat-kalat lang talaga sila o AKO MISMO pakalat-kalat!</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large;">Sana last na to. Baka aatakihin na ako sa puso sa susunod na may "nagparamdam"! Or else baka TOPAKIN ako!</span>TOPAK!!!http://www.blogger.com/profile/13479880241989270607noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7992569284685435553.post-47095066056537572542011-04-13T08:02:00.000-07:002011-04-13T08:06:33.757-07:00Vintage<span style="color: yellow; font-size: large;">I am happy the past few days and this is one of the reasons why. I so love the bitching... hahaha...</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For some reason, I know for some time, minahal ko din tong mga gagong to!</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Kidding aside, shempre may nakita akong magandang qualities sa kanila at hindi lang dahil masarap sila. Haha... :p</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Etong si kulet, we had a fall-out January 2010. As in hindi magandang eksena dahil nasa mall kami at dun kami nagsisigawan at nagmumurahan. Yes, you read it ryt, nagmumurahan! Kaya I told myself last na yun. Sa ibang araw ko na ikukwento yun.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Almost 3 years din kami at 1 year since we lived in the same house. Yes, we tried living in, a first for both of us.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">For more than year now, and after several failed relationships ko </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">(I had 3 in a year! Ganda lang, ika nga! Hahaha)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">, we finally had a closure one evening somewhere in Makati. I felt relieved. And I also mentioned that I have a partner already though we had some issues too.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Last night, we had a text brigade:</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Ex: May prob ba?</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Me: Wala naman. Bket mo naitanong?</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Ex: Kase parang wala kang gana magtext eh. I just thought na baka may prob ka. Concern lang.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange;">Me: </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">(Walang kilig, pramis)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange;"> Ah ok. Im gud. Shempre di naman na tayo kaya may magbabago talaga at may partner na akong bago.</span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Ex: Ahh.. nde na ako sanay sayo eh. Topak, may sasabihin pala ako sayo...</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Me: Sige gow, watch lang ako Mara Clara </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">(naadik ako dito, pramis! Sa kaiiyak ni Mara, sa malditang si Clara, sa hayuf na si Gary, sa tangang Alvira at Amante! Makakalimutan ko ba ang super funny na sosyalerang si Desiree aka Kiray? Haha. Kabisado ko di ba?)</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Ex: Pag 35 k na at nagkataon na single ka at single ako, tayo na lang ulet? Hehehe...</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Me: Nyek, 3 years from now na yun. Tsaka happy na ako ngayon...</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Ex: </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">(Fan yata ni jaworki eto, never say die!)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> Shempre iba na yun, nag iba na tayo. Madami ng nagbago sa ugali at pananaw naten. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">(Nababago nga ba ang ugali in just 2-3 years? Ganun kadali?)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> Naisip ko lang kase lifetime na yun. Yung ako na nag-aalaga sayo pag may sakit ka at matanda ka na :) wala lang. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">(so 3 years from now pala matanda na ako, pano na yung 50 by then, ano na sila, ingkong??)</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange;">Me: Pero its too early to say. And up until now, wala pa ko binabalikan sa mga ex ko. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">(Yes, my fellow readers, wala pa talaga. Kase even before I gave up, I made sure I tried my best to save what's left of our relationship. Winner di ba?)</span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange;">Ex: Naisip ko lang naman. Kung sakaling single tayo pareho. Shempre as much as possible gusto naten na may kasama tayo sa pagtanda. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">(I care about my job, sir, I care about you! Gawin ba kong caregiver? hehe)</span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Me: Kuntento na ako as friends. Mas magtatagal tayo as friends kesa partners.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Ex: </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">(Never say never talaga tong si Justin Bieber este si Ex)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> If ever dumating yun, I'll still do my best to win you back :). Kahet gaano kahirap pa. I'll prove u na its worth a try.. Again!</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Ex: I was single for 4 years before u came, I dont mind waiting another 4 years kung yung taong mamahalin ko is worth it. Napasagot kita nuon </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">(Yes, you heard him ryt, nanligaw at nag antay sya na mahalin ko. Abot ba jan haba ng hair ko?? Hihihi)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> coz nakita mo kung gaano ako kaseryoso sayo, nakita mo na malinis hangarin ko.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Me: Matulog ka na, puyat lang yan! </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">(panira ng moment)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> Hahaha...</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Is there really a second chance? Will it be really worth it? </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Im happy and contented with my current relationship running 5 months already. So what he's telling me is indeed a "wishful thinking".</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I will stick to what I have been believing from the start, no second chances for me. Coz even before we parted ways with all of my ex's, I made sure I made only one thing: save it. So if I gave up, there's no turning back for me. For I only allowed myself to get hurt once, just once, so I only got you to blame. The 2nd time around that I got hurt by the same people, I'm already at fault.</span>TOPAK!!!http://www.blogger.com/profile/13479880241989270607noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7992569284685435553.post-10048179395183903442011-04-08T16:05:00.000-07:002011-04-08T16:05:30.498-07:00The nights will be longer - another poem!<div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Poetry and writing are just two of the things I have forgotten to do in a while. College days honed these skills and even won me some cash. $$$ Hehe. But most of all, I write to express what I want, what I think and what my heart desires. 2011 promises a lot of things for me, this is one of them. My first blood in poetry making =). Can someone make a melody for this? (asking much?)</span></div><div style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br />
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</div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">The nights become longer</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">Looking for a warm shoulder</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">I never think I could ever love again</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">For with love I ain’t gonna bargain</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">I’ve been telling myself</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">Please spare me the pain</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">Or find me someone to love again.</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">The nights are now longer</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">Thinking what could have been</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">Or if love will find its way back to me again</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">I’ve met hundreds, maybe a thousand more</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">That love is here, my hope just soar</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">I will love again, for that I’m sure</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">“There’s one for all of us”, as they say</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">I just wish whoever you are, do please stay</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">The nights will be longer, I’ll give it a day</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">Just so you know, “I love you” is all I want to say.</span></div>TOPAK!!!http://www.blogger.com/profile/13479880241989270607noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7992569284685435553.post-7067465146553392752011-04-08T16:02:00.000-07:002011-04-08T16:02:41.370-07:00Someday - poem<div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Like a rose wilting and dying, so feels my heart.</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">You trampled the most fragile thing in my body, and left me for dead.</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">For a time you made me smile, stood up for me. My spirit was lifted.</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">This was the first time anyone did this, and for a time I felt loved because you made me.</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I never wanted to leave your side.</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I was afraid to lose you,</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">But reality hit me - you never felt the same,</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I had been floating on a fake cloud.</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Just as the song goes, and so does my love</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Someday we will meet again without a frailing heart</span></div><div style="line-height: 1.5em; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I know that someday, someone will stay... :D</span></div>TOPAK!!!http://www.blogger.com/profile/13479880241989270607noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7992569284685435553.post-64119936700761703882011-04-06T08:05:00.000-07:002011-04-06T08:11:07.367-07:00Chub Chaser<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Hay.. I'm overshadowed by clouds of uncertainty so I just decided to post a blog here... to buy me some time from thinking what I just discovered... :(</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Eversince I learned about the bees and the flowers, I have been attracted to stocky/chub guys. Ewan ko ba.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">I prefer maputi or moreno, and a very nice smile, a killer-smile na tipong pati eyes nila mag smile just by doing so. :) </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">All of my exes are stocky to chubby guys. I like it when I cuddle my partner. I find warmth in their embraces.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Based on some saying, chubby guys are "relatively short down there". Hehe. Based from experience, I find it true which I dont mind coz I'm top. :) But there are, of course in any rule, exceptions. I've seen some chubs who got bigger "thing" than mine. Too bad, they're bottom. Hehe..</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">I find beards and goatees sexy appealing and their hands like small chorizos. Hehe..</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">I also do love their appetite for eating (obviously)! Sa mga partners ko lang naexperience kung san masarap kumain na restaurants, masarap na siomai, pancit, cakes, desserts, ice creams..</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">And most of all, I Loved all my Chub partners... :)</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Kahit di sila makayuko to touch their toes, kahit hirap bilhan ng briefs kase bihira ang XXL or XXXL na size, kahit hirap sa ibang sex positions (Rated R), still, I know I loved them with all my heart.. and kahit ngayon sa partner ko, I know I loved him dearly...</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Before, I used to think na chubby guys na lang pipiliin ko kase bihira lang nagkakagusto sa kanila at somehow may insecurities sila kase nga they are bigger than the usual... in other words, di ako lolokohin at sasaktan...</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">But I was wrong... :(</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Hindi din pala. May mga chubby din pala na player type, meron ding sinungaling.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Which led me to a conclusion, its not the body type of a person which determines how they are in a relationship. Ganun din sila like sa mga slim and buff na tao, may player, may sinungaling...</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">But now I know I would want him not only because he's chubby, but I know there's one more good reason for me to love him more.</span>TOPAK!!!http://www.blogger.com/profile/13479880241989270607noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7992569284685435553.post-38784972631488363502011-04-06T07:40:00.000-07:002011-04-06T09:12:30.544-07:00Wahhh... I'm so scared...<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: lime; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">"<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;">Sunday (Oct 5) - So stress with work, q1H ang monitoring sa isang patient na malakas ang suicidal ideation. I gave her some counselling….. <b>5 pm need to meet My Ocamp0 ( may boylet) at SM North for dinner. ….My OcampO is so nice that he bring me home….so tired that i slept so early.</b></span></span><br />
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</span></div><div style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large;">Just by the look of it, something is really not right... :(</span></div><div style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large;"><br />
</span></div><div style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large;">Which makes me sad and worried by now...</span></div><div style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large;"><br />
</span></div><div style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large;">I dont want to dwell on negativity by now, but I can't help it...</span></div><div style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large;"><br />
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</span></div><div style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large;">And now this...:(</span></div><div style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large;"><br />
</span></div><div style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large;">Di naman ako imbestigador but facts have been landing effortlessly since then...</span></div><div style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large;"><br />
</span></div><div style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large;">Should I start to get worried? Should I spy? Or should I let this overcome me? :(</span></div>TOPAK!!!http://www.blogger.com/profile/13479880241989270607noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7992569284685435553.post-16052208775119805512011-04-04T08:45:00.000-07:002011-04-04T08:45:42.447-07:00Grenade<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KSVwI6oeemE"></a><br />
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Hay... malungkot ka na nga, tigang ka pa...TOPAK!!!http://www.blogger.com/profile/13479880241989270607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7992569284685435553.post-85665616597539020052011-04-04T05:18:00.000-07:002011-04-04T05:26:02.461-07:00Unproductive Monday<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Haist. As expected, di na naman kami lumakad ni partner. :(</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Ayoko sana masanay pero wala ako magagawa eh. I can go out by myself pero lalo lang akong malulungkot. :(</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Salamat sa mga nadiskubre kong blogs and it made my day worthwhile. Di ko na nga namamalayan ang oras ko. :)</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Minsan nakikita ko sitwasyon ko sa kanila, or minsan yung mismong sarili ko sa mga ginagawa nila.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">May tungkol sa family, sa love, sa partner, sa ex, sa sex, sa friends, kainuman or kahit nakita lang sa daan. Hehe.. </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Pero tama nga ba na ganito na lang lagi? Na masanay sa di mo nakasanayan? Na ibaba mo yung standards mo para sa relasyong meron ka ngayon? Will it be worth it?</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: cyan; font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Di ko din alam....</span>TOPAK!!!http://www.blogger.com/profile/13479880241989270607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7992569284685435553.post-76445464325711207882011-04-03T06:02:00.000-07:002011-04-03T06:08:04.199-07:00A Long-Alone Sunday<i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: orange; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 14px;">"Sabi sa census may 11 milyon na tao sa Metro Manila. Paano mo malalaman na nahanap mo na yung taong para sa'yo? Maaring nakita mo na siya, pero yumuko ka para magsintas. Maaring nakatabi mo na siya, pero lumingon ka para tingnan ang traffic lights. Maaring nakasalubong mo na siya pero humarang yung pedicab.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 14px;"><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: yellow; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large; line-height: 14px;">To my surprise, he caught my attention. I glanced the 2nd, 3rd, 4th, until I finally lost count.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: yellow; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large; line-height: 14px;">The guy was a big, chub, moreno-type. Not that he's not my type, Im inside a church, but what really caught my attention was his sobbing. :(</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: yellow; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large; line-height: 14px;">He was literally in tears as he continuously wept throughout the mass. Then the realization touched me.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: yellow; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large; line-height: 14px;">This man could have far more bigger problem than I have. And I just simply uttered "Lord, kung anuman dinadasal nya, I know YOU will give what he needs." And I prayed for my peace.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: yellow; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: large; line-height: 14px;">I have to thank God for all his blessings to me: my family, my work, my friends...whether this relationship I have will last, thank you still for the experience...as it made me things that I only do when I am single... to be talking to You, heart to heart, soul to soul...</span>TOPAK!!!http://www.blogger.com/profile/13479880241989270607noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7992569284685435553.post-89739289046885098712011-03-25T14:39:00.000-07:002011-03-25T14:39:58.959-07:00EX - AXE!!!OK. Like with my previous post, I already admitted I'm seloso, as in super seloso...<br />
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So what a way to spoil my day, and my life for that matter, is knowing that my partner's ex of 3 years is still in communication with him...<br />
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I know all those blah blah na "past is past", "he already moved on" and that "they are just friends".. these words don't calm me... honestly...<br />
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So when I learned that my partner will be in one place with his ex, for an overnight stay, without my presence, really push me to my limits of being jealous... :( even if there are some friends with them... but still... :((<br />
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I cant recall how many times we "separated" before this one, but certainly, this time around, I know I have the right to be jealous....<br />
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Who wouldn't be? Picture this, Your partner and his ex, knowing that he's his greatest love to date, will have all the time in the world to talk and be together... God... those hours seemed an eternity to me... I didn't get to sleep at all... :(<br />
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The saddest part is, he knows I'm jealous of the EX, but still he pushes through...and then off we go...<br />
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... and on again in a couple of days... (to be continued)TOPAK!!!http://www.blogger.com/profile/13479880241989270607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7992569284685435553.post-46108881173980475312011-03-25T14:29:00.000-07:002011-03-25T14:30:52.850-07:00PARANOIAHay, so after I learned about it, I immediately broke off with him...<br />
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Knowing me as a soft-hearted person, and honestly, I already have feelings for him, only after a few hours, we came back to each others arms... :)<br />
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But my being jealous was replaced with being suspicious... susme... mas mahirap pala... :(<br />
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And I continue to struggle everyday trying to fight off any bad idea that is coming to my mind that alleviates my being "TOPAK-in"...<br />
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And everytime I was about to give up, or when my paranoia sets in, there's only one thing that kept me going...<br />
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I know in the deepest of my heart, I knew I already LOVED HIM...TOPAK!!!http://www.blogger.com/profile/13479880241989270607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7992569284685435553.post-86169365408493038332011-03-24T13:12:00.000-07:002011-03-24T13:12:07.552-07:00SELOSOI am currently in a relationship. And I can say I'm Seloso, or make that sobrang ubod ng seloso...<br />
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And more often than not, eto yung cause ng TOPAK ko... thus, I'm creating this blog to share to everyone EXACTLY where this TOPAK came from...actually kahet wala nga makabasa nito ok lang... :)<br />
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I love this new guy, 4 months na kami. Pero our relationship started off in the wrong foot..<br />
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We met in a gay dating site, exchange pictures, then numbers... then the unending texts and calls came in next...<br />
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We met and initially, he's the one who wanted a relationship. I thought I was not ready.<br />
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In other words, we became partners..since we agreed to become partners, I asked him if we could remove our profiles from the gay dating site where we met. And so we did...<br />
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Its just that I was not specific, I said just remove it from the site where we met, but not in OTHER gay dating sites, which I found out that he also have other accounts...<br />
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And then my TOPAK steps in... :( (to be continued)TOPAK!!!http://www.blogger.com/profile/13479880241989270607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7992569284685435553.post-8808236051328548482011-03-24T12:38:00.000-07:002011-03-24T12:38:12.861-07:00Topak!First blood, ika nga...<br />
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Why Topak? Let's just say I met this one person, fell in love, and he called me Topak.<br />
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For some reason, I felt like it was a nice tag: TOPAK.<br />
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For some, it means "sira ulo" or "baliw". For me its just a sudden change in state of mind, mood and emotions... TOPAK!<br />
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This blog will definitely explore and reveal all my inhibitions about sex, love and life...TOPAK!!!http://www.blogger.com/profile/13479880241989270607noreply@blogger.com4